sahaja yoga my personal spiritual growth
I am 35 year old male who has been practicing Sahaja Yoga for over three years
now and I started this website because Sahaja Yoga has had such a positive and
incredible effect on my life.  I wanted to share my personal experiences and the true
knowledge of Sahaja Yoga with other people.

These are my experiences.  I was raised as a Christian and had a good childhood
and would say that life has always been pretty good to me - no complaints.  I was
introduced to Sahaja Yoga by a family member who had been practising for many
years.  I received my self realization approximately three years ago and my life has
begun to change ever since.  I initially never felt much when I received my self
realization.  Before I started practicing Sahaja Yoga I was always interested to learn
about it.  I tried to meditate a couple of times but still never really felt much.  Then a
few months later I was determined to feel something - so I started meditating every
night.  I never felt much for about the first few nights.  Then after a few nights during
meditation I felt the Kundalini rise from the bottom of my spine slowly like a wave and
stop at my neck (at my Vishhuddi chakra where i had a lot of blockages).  The
kundalini rose with such a force and significance it was incredible.  It was the most
beautiful experience of my entire life.  I actually had tears in my eyes because it was
so beautiful, and I'm not the type of person to cry.  I don't know how to describe it -
they were tears from the beauty of it.  From that point forward my life had begun to
change for the better - my second birth - my true baptism had taken place.  What
has Sahaja Yoga done for me.  In short - everything.  It's given me inner peace,
love, awareness, more energy, confidence and JOY (undescribable joy).  Let me talk
about each of these briefly.

Inner Peace.and Love.  Sahaja Yoga has given me such an incredible sense of
inner peace.  It has helped me in finding inner peace.  It has also given me an
incredible sense of love for everything and everyone.  Prior to my self realization,
strangers were simply strangers to me.  Now I feel love for actual strangers - they're
like brothers and sisters to me.  This love comes from the inside (one of the beautiful
things which happens when you start to clear your heart chakra and it becomes
enlightened).  I never thought this could be possible but it is.

Awareness.  Sahaja Yoga has given me such an incredible sense of awareness.  
I've become aware of so many things.  Prior to my self realization, I use to drink
alcohol and swear quite a bit.  Right after my self realization I completely stopped
drinking and swearing.  I realized it was wrong and I had no desire to drink or swear
whatsoever.  This awareness all came from the inside and it improved over time
through meditation.  It didn't come from anything I read or was told.  I also became
aware and learned the state of my subtle system.  You can feel the state of your
subtle system through the tingling on your fingertips when you meditate.  Each finger
corresponds to a specific chakra.  If a specific finger is tingling you know there is a
blockage on that specific chakra.  You know which chakras are blocked and which
ones are not.  With this knowledge you learn techniques to clear your chakras
(meditate) and stop the behaviour which caused the blockages in the first place.
You also become much more aware of what is right or wrong.  You actually become
a better person.  I've become aware of and learned so many through Sahaja Yoga
and the teachings of Shri Mataji.  The talks and lectures she gives are absolutely
amazing.

I've also become more forgiving, compassionate and humble.  Prior to Sahaja Yoga
meditation I used to be quite attached to material possessions and money.  I still am
a little bit but not like before - I've become aware of how meaningless these things
are.  The thing is you don't realize how meaningless these things are until after you
get your self realization and start meditating.

Energy.  Sahaja Yoga mediation has given me a great deal more energy.  Prior to
my self realization I would describe my energy levels as poor.  I was always a laid
back and mellow person.  I'm still a laid back person but have a great deal more
energy.  How does a person get more energy through meditation?  What happens
after you get your self realization is that when you meditate the kundalini rises.  The
kundalini energy clears the blockages you have in your chakras.  Chakras are
energy centres which spin in a clockwise rotation.  The cleaner your chakras, the
faster they will spin and the more energy your chakras will provide to your body and
organs.
I feel much more energetic today.  I also have much better mental clarity.  I can
remember things better and perform mental tasks much better.

Finding Joy.  Sahaja Yoga has given me a great deal of Joy - undescribable joy.  
I've had numerous experiences of this joy.  This joy comes from the inside out of
nothing - for no reason whatsoever.   It's difficult to describe these experiences but
I'll attempt to.  It's such a pure bliss and extreme joy and so beautiful that words
cannot describe it.  Words such as nirvana and exctasy doesn't do it justice.  It's a
high - you're just so full of joy and energy it's incredible.  These instances of joy do
not happen all the time for me (although it is possible).  For the first week after my
kundalini rose I had some beautiful experiences.  During this week I was basically on
a high for the whole week - full of joy and bliss - when I listened to music I could feel
it in my heart.  I could feel every beat and  rythm inside of me - it's very difficult to
describe but it was just incredibly beautiful to listen to music.  I also noticed that I
became a little more creative - nothing extreme but I noticed that I could draw
pictures better than before.  After this initial first week I still have these episodes of
joy, they just don't occur all the time like they did the first week  - sometimes I
experience it periodically a little bit every day for a few days and sometimes I won't
experience it for another few weeks.  It occurs at no specific time and the intensities
and length usually vary as well.  Usually I'll just be doing nothing and it happens, a
lot of times it happens when I'm listening to music.  Music is definitely a catalyst for
this joy - good music that hits your soul.  I also noticed that these moments of joy
occur when I'm not thinking of anything.   I've never really had many moments of this
joy when I'm at work because I'm busy using my brain.  They usually occur when I'm
finished work listening to music or at home after work or on weekends when my mind
is clear - not really thinking of anything.  Usually when people talk about happiness
they think it relates to specific circumstances.  They believe if they have a big house
or a lot of money they'll be happy or if a specific circumstance occurs they'll be
happy.  Not true.  It all depends on the state of your subtle system (the state of your
chakras) - it's all inside you.  Joy and happiness are two different things to me.  
Happiness is contentment.  Joy is that high you get.  Happiness I had prior to my self-
realization - I had periods of happiness, sometimes sadness, mostly just regular -
content- like most people.  After self-realization I became a much happier person.  
Joy - I never knew prior to my self realization - I didn't think it was humanly possible.  
What gives you this joy?  The kundalini does.  I've experienced many beautiful and
joyful moments - not in my wildest dreams did I ever believe this was possible.  I'm a
much happier person today - life becomes better - joyous, something to look forward
to every single day.

Confidence.  Sahaja Yoga has given me a great deal more confidence.  Prior to my
self-realization I would describe myself as introverted and somewhat shy.  Nothing
extreme but definately on the introverted side.  One particular area I always had
trouble with was public speaking.  I always had a great fear of public speaking and
would try to avoid these situations at all costs.  To give you an example while I was in
university and I enrolled in a particular course and found out during the first class
that you had to do presentations I would drop the course and take another one
where presentations were not required.  Any time it was a mandatory course I would
get extremely nervous before and during the presentation.  In order to help me get
through these presentations I would drink alcohol prior to the presentation.  I would
usually drink about a half litre of wine about an hour prior to my presentation.  This
was just enough to give me the confidence I needed as well as not too much so
nobody would notice I had been drinking.  After my self-realization I began to
develop confidence and security - this is one of the beautiful things which happens
to you once you begin to clear your heart chakra and it becomes enlightened - you
become confident and fearless.  Alcohol is never a part of my life now and when I do
presentations now I am completely confident.

The beauty of Sahaja Yoga meditation is you change from the inside.  You don't
need blind faith.  Everything you learn in Sahaja Yoga you will experience.  You will
experience the truth.  The first step is self realization - the initial raising of the
kundalini - this enlightens your subtle system.  Then you start attending the classes
in order to learn about the subtle system, how to meditate and the beauty and truth
about Sahaja Yoga.  Going to classes also allows you to be collective.  Your
meditations will be much better when you meditate in a group as opposed to when
you meditate by yourself.  Then you mediate daily - this is how your personal
spiritual growth and awareness takes place.  When you meditate your kundalini rises
and clears any obstructions you may have on your chakras - the cleaner your
chakras the better you will feel.  The most difficult part is trying to convince someone
that all this is possible.  How do you convince someone that all this beauty is
possible and that in order to achieve this beauty and to grow spiritually you need
your self-realization and you need to meditate.  It's very difficult because they've
been so conditioned to think a certain way and not accept any other ways.  The
beauty is all you have to do is try it and you will see for yourself that it is possible.

I've found that certain things have helped me when I first stared out and through my
progression.

  • Patience - Things take  time - be patient.  You will progressively feel better as
    you meditate over time.
  • Faith - Faith is so important.  If your lacking faith - ask for it during meditation
  • Stay Focused - It's easy to get sidetracked in life.
  • Open Mind - This is so important.  Conditioning makes it difficult for us to try
    and accept something new.

I often say to myself that my life has become a miracle.  It's not a miracle - this is
available and possible for everyone.  I'm just a regular guy who's made a lot of
mistakes and errors in my life.  I view my life now in two stages - my life prior to
Sahaja Yoga - regular, completely unaware - and my life after Sahaja Yoga - full of
peace, awareness, love and JOY - my second birth - my enlightenment!  Thank You
Shri Mataji!
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